[soc.religion.eastern] Da Avabhasa - Study the Great Tradition as Sadhana

cyee@bruce.cs.monash.edu.au (Chut Ngeow YEE) (06/19/91)

I am rather amused by Mr. Kumar angry reactions to my posting. If Da Avabhasa
is wrong or if I am wrong than that is our problem. But his anger is
definitely his problem now. I hope the following postings will perhaps pacify
him a bit.

To my understanding the Way of the Heart, the spiritual practice that Da
Avabhasa offered, is already fully given in the very first days of his
teaching career. The next twenty years, including the constant review of new
and ancient books and the creation of "The Basket of Tolerance", are
elaborations for the shake of his present and future devotees. The core of his
teaching is already given in his autobiography "The knee of listening" (1970)
and his very first book "The Method of The Siddhas"(1972), and his devotees
still constantly refer to these two books even until now. It blew my mind that
a 32 year old young man would come out of seemingly nowhere, open a samall
shop front in downtown Hollywood and gave those amazing talks. I will do more
postings from these two books later on. In fact most of my previous postings
were from his books prior to 1980.

In the next few postings I will attempt to give you some ideas of what, why
and how of "The Basket of Tolerance"...and, what he meant by discriminative
intelligence.

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Da Avabhasa: "I myself have suggested on occasion that it is useful to study
religion and spiritual philosophy in terms of the Great Tradition. The reason
such critical study is useful is that you already have all kinds of
inherited, thought-up, and propagandized ideas that correspond to ideas that
can be found in the traditions. Thus, you can see how those ideas
traditionally get elaborated as a way of life, and you can see their
limitations. Doing philosophy in these terms, then, can be said to have a
purpose. Doing philosophy is thus a way of undoing philosophy.

Part of what I am doing is to help people break out of the mold of religious
provincialism, the mode of feeling that you are somehow obliged by virtue of
childhood training to presume that you are related to just one tradition, a
specific dogmatic tradition, or a Western orientation, or whatever your birth
signs and early cultural life or society determined was to be your religious
background. In fact, we are not truly the inheritors of these provincial
religious traditions, At this point in history we are all the inheritors of
the Great Tradition, the total tradition, and we should acknowledge this.

One of the great traditional means of Realization and of practice toward
Realization is the affirmation of the sacred tradition. If you study the
Hindu scriptures, for instance, they outline various means that should help
you to become convinced of the Way and equipped to practice it, and
ultimately to enter into its Realization. Discriminative intelligence and
insight are prominent among all those means. The authority, rightly
understood, of the sacred tradition - represented by Realizers of the past
and their reports - is one of the great aids to practice of the Way.

In this time of doubt, people are highly secularized, not even religious. If
they are religious they are basically provincial and associated with religion
in its lowest form, the form it takes in the lesser stages of life. In this
epoch, people tend to live on the basis of doubt. Doubt informs our culture,
it is a primary principle of our world society. One of the great traditional
means to restore faith is to consider the testimony of those Realizers who
have come before and those now communicating the Way of Realization. Having
entered into this Domain of Realization, I can affirm to you the force of
this Great Tradition as a whole. I help you to understand all those features
of it which represent its primary force, which we should take into account
and affirm, and use to heal our doubt and transcend the mechanical
disposition of doubt." (1983)

Da Avabhasa : "I do not mean that you should just read a couple of lines [of
traditional literature] here and there. You should be obliged to read and
formally study a complete book every week or two ... Thus, you will
eventually become familiar with these works and become responsible for the
hash of ideas you have in the back of your mind.

In the present moment, no matter what stage of practice any one is at, he or
she has to go to school relative to the Way of the Heart and the Great
Tradition. Everybody must understand that their formal study of these matters
is just as much a part of this Way of life as their service, their
meditation, and their devotional activities." (1986)

Da Avabhasa : "You cannot see the subtle uniqueness in the various aspects of
this Teaching because you do not know what the Great Tradition itself is. The
religion you all know is Sunday school or its equivalent at the synagogue.
Beyond that, there is very little that you reresent in terms of an educated
understanding of this Great Tradition. My own Teaching is not an effort to
brainwash you or lay arbitrary notions on you. I represent the entire Great
Tradition. However, it requires great understanding of that tradition to
practice this Way. It does not require a doctoral degree, or something like
that. It is fine that there are various levels of the capacity for study.
Nonetheless, there must be some fundamental understanding of the Great
Tradition.

All these years, I have been calling on students and practitioners to study
and gain this understanding. I have talked about the traditions in all kinds
of ways. I have generated an educational process through my own Work with
you. Through all these years, I have also been creating what is now known as
"The Basket Of Tolerance", which is a very specific design for your study of
the Great Tradition - something that is workable, and usable by everyone.

Becoming familiar with the Great Tradition is another fundamental that you
must have established in order to practice as a devotee. If you do not have
some true familiarity and understanding of the Great Tradition... you are so
full of prejudices relative to sadhana and what it requires that you freeze
yourself out of real participation in the process. So you must get an
education to unlearn your own prejudices and mental blocks against the
Spiritual process.

You do not only need an education in this Way in particular. You need an
education in the whole history of human religion and Spirituality, so that
you can overcome your prejudices, your failed religion neurosis and all the
rest of it. You have to set yourself free for the Spiritual process. It is
not that you have to encumber yourself with this education. You have to use
it as a means for transcending your own limitations relative to the Spiritual
process. That is what I call you to do by using "The Basket Of Tolerance" -
not to get involved in the stuff of the Great Tradition for its own sake, but
to use that study critically as a means for clarifying your own mind,
relieving your own prejudices, and making the Great Tradition your tradition
in some fundamental sense. Through that study, you overcome your religious
prejudices and free yourself for the real practice...." (1987)

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"I did not enter into and endure or pass through the Spiritual process by
being an asshole or true believer. Doubt was my Siddhi, the kind of Siddhi I
acquired through that intellectual discipline. I do not believe or
communicate bullshit, nor do I suggest that you bullshit yourself. Put
yourself through the hard school, and really consider it. You must realize
that capacity for discrimination, or you really cannot cut it in the
Spiritual process. It takes a long time to be really schooled in
discrimination. There is more to discrimination than just things of the mind,
ideas and so forth. Discrimination is a tool you also bring to non-ideas - to
impressions and events that have nothing to do with intellect or mentality or
culture or society. You must bring discrimination to events that transcend
the conventional or lower body-mind, that transcend the first three stages of
life. I was able to use that tool in the higher stages of life. I know how
important it is as an instrument for growth into the higher stages.
Therefore, you must acquire a similar capacity.

Developing the discriminative mind is not a matter of absorbing content. You
do not have to absorb all the books in "The Basket Of Tolerance" and be full
of thoughts. You must use "The Basket Of Tolerance" as a means for polishing
the discriminative intelligence, and let it serve the Spiritual process. You
must use it to relieve yourself of mind, not to build it up, or create
accumulations of thought. Something like that may occur for you in the
beginning. But if you truly and seriously enter into this consideration of
the Great Tradition, it will break your mind like the Spiritual process
breaks your heart. It does not break your mind in a negative sense - it will
relieve you of your egoic prejudice, your provincialism, your small-
mindedness, your self-possession in mind. It will give you an instrument that
is beyond the body and beyond mere energies and sensory impressions and
casual thoughts. It will grant you an instrument that will be useful to you
in the transition from the whole cosmic game of the first five stages of life.

That is a hard school, yes. That is the way it is. It is not that you are
born in this lifetime to realize the Ultimate. You exist to realize the
Ultimate. You will have many opportunities in life. This is one of them. If
you can fulfill this grand passion of the Way, then maybe you will realize it
perfectly. If you cannot, then you will realize a lesser stage, and that is
the way it is. It is not damnation. It is reality. To realize the great
stages of the Way, you must become a Genius of Realization, a Saint, a great
Yogi, a true Seer, a true Siddha. That is what it takes, absolutely nothing
less. You are given every advantage, but it nonetheless requires a great deal
of you.

In My Company you can Realize Happiness. But if you are to Realize Happiness
of Self, you must learn how to think, learn how to discriminate, learn how to
transcend, learn how to overcome yourself. You must go through this hard
school here. It was Columbia for me. but for you it is this hard school of
consideration. There is no easy way to go through it. You all want to be calm
and congratulate yourselves into the ultimate Realization of existence! It is
absolutely impossible to do it that way! You must be refined and hardened,
polished, brightened, awakened, quickened, transcended, perfected, or else
you can be a level 1.1 practitioner or something just a little bit beyond it
for the rest of your life. That is the way it is. There is not a damn thing I
can do about it. Cult be damned! The cult cannot enlighten you.

The real process is a kind of extraordinary asceticism, but not asceticism as
it is commonly understood - just putting on a hair shirt, keeping your
genitals in your pants, eating very little and so on. It is a superior
asceticism, the asceticism of the total being, whereby it transcends itself.
Apart from that asceticism, you cannot realize the Ultimate. You cannot
realize much beyond the beginning without it. A little bit of discipline, a
little bit of understanding, a little bit of responsiveness can enable you to
enter into the process of the Way. But you cannot fulfill it without being
hardened, polished, brightened, made into a fire by discipline. It is
impossible. So the choice is up to you. What will you do about it? You tend
to cop out by assuming the point of view of limitation, choosing associations
that make you feel comfortable. Notice how you make this choice, then
discipline yourself. If you choose not to discipline yourself and overcome
your point of view, do not blame me. Do not suggest that I said that is what
you should do.

Of course, there is not only that sheer discipline in this Way, that hard
school - there is also the Grace of the Presence of Samadhi, the Attractive
Power. That unique Gift is also given to you. That Power does not make this
Way into A silly middle-class religion business. The Way itself remains a
hard school. But the hard school becomes effective and quickened by that
Attractive Power.

This is the Gift I give to you, and I cannot give any relife from the hard
school itself. I do not suggest to you that there is a cultic way to realize
the Ultimate. I do not suggest that you can choose the disposition or the way
of the ego, be self-consoling, and somehow fulfill this practice. You
absolutely cannot. Look at all the details that I communicate to you and the
summaries of the Teaching. There are very real disciplines, very real
requirements, and there is no way to cop out and still grow and Realize.

Easy for me to say? No. My life became really difficult when I started to
Teach. It certainly was difficult before, but compared to the difficulties
that have developed since I begun to Teach, my earlier life and ordeal of
Realization was nothing. So I have had to live the hard school, and so must
you. And I have not, by fulfilling that process in Realization, relieved
myself of difficulty, you see. It becomes more and more difficult, never less
and less. so what is the moral?" (1987)

cyee@bruce.cs.monash.edu.au (Chut Ngeow YEE) (06/20/91)

Transcending Intolerance and Religious Provincialism
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Sri Da Avabhasa: "To be a Spiritual practitioner in the context of the Way of
the Heart, you must be a very tolerant person. That does not mean that you are
blithe, stupid, thinking everything is great, or that all paths lead in one
direction. You must be very discriminative, certainly, and you must transcend
your aggressiveness relative to alternative views. It is one thing to
transcend your aggressiveness. It is another matter to believe that everything
is the same and to have no discrimination - that is not what tolerance means!
Tolerance must be based on discrimination. You must be discriminative in the
framework of your own consideration, and you must be led by that
discriminative understanding. You must not only tolerate the views of other
individuals and cultures, you must understand their views and not become
aggressively polarized or depolarized in relationship to them. That is a key
orientation of this "Basket Of Tolerance" and of the Way of the Heart in
general". (1987)


"Have you notice that when you read spiritual or philosophical texts, or
think about the Great Tradition yourself, that you are constantly coming upon
great, archetypal ideas? Those ideas or mind-forms then inform your entire
personality for a while, if only for those few minutes, although frequently
it lasts for days. Those ideas re-emerge throughout your life. The Great
Tradition in some sense is a flow or a vault of such archetypal ideas, along
with a lot of other secondary notions. When you come upon these principal
ideas, through your own thinking or your study of the traditions, then you
move into the domain of that archetype and it begins to control your mind,
your psyche, your feeling, your body. You begin to talk in that mode, you
become possessed in some sense. It is like plugging in a crystal in a radio
set, or putting a tape into a computer or a video machine. Suddenly you
become a theater of comprehension, and adopt a particular feeling about
existence.

To become religious or to become involved in one or another traditional
approach to Truth is to acknowledge these great archetypal notions to be the
Truth, to allow them to control your disposition more or less constantly. And
anyone who gets in this mood becomes the advocate of one of these traditions.
Every one of these traditions within the Great Tradition has one basic and
perhaps several supporting ideas like this. When you plug into them, or plug
them into yourself, you take on that form, and them you "blah blah blah" those
ideas. Whether you advocate that teaching as a scholar or a practitioner, I
suggest that your advocacy is completely mechanical. You could have plugged
into anything! You could have plugged in the television program "I Love Lucy"!

The Great Tradition is a bearer of a finite number of these great archetypal
notions that have the ability to control the entire conditional person. And
they have the quality that suggests they account for everything altogether -
everything about the conditional person, including everything beyond
everything. Merely to be in the presence of such ideas is to be a believer
somehow, because it permeates every aspect of mind, of psyche, of feeling,
even of action. As long as you are plugged into any given idea, your mind or
your entire personality tends to be animated along those lines, and the power
of discrimination gets lost to a significant degree."(1985)


"Students and practitioners are not here to practice the Great Tradition. They
are here to practice the Way of the Heart, and they are to study the Great
Tradition in the context of the Way of the Heart. I do not want individuals
to get into this fetishistic approach relative to the Great Tradition, nor
any abstract notions about it. We must cut into this fetishism, this
provincialism and this lack of information. Formal study of the Great
Tradition is the way to do that. And this study must be done systematically,
not randomly." (1986)


"If you spend some time in the library simply reading the books on this
reading list, after a while you will begin to get bewildered. Eventually you
will begin to develop, perhaps unconsciously, certain kinds of attitudes that
will obstruct your life and your real practice. You will tends to take on the
various traditional attitudes that are so fully communicated in this vast
literature. However, there is as much to be overcome in that vast literature
as there is in the world, so-called. The study of the literature of the
traditions not only informs one's understanding, it is a test of
understanding. Understanding is a living process, not merely information or a
state of mind. So you must be able to deal with the different kinds of
communication that are involved in traditional literatures." (1981)

cyee@bruce.cs.monash.edu.au (Chut Ngeow YEE) (06/20/91)

Sacred Study versus Academic Study
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Da Avabhasa: "In academic study, you are called to indulge in an exercise of
literary criticism, to discover the contradictions or faults, and play the
school-boy games of one-upsmanship and finding the author out. Such study is
an academic game in which you are called to engage in a critical examination
of the piece to be studied. This is not the approach to the sadhana of study.
You do use the discriminative mind, and you may be critical to some degree,
but you primarily exercise discriminative intelligence in another fashion. In
academic study, you are called to examine an objective matter and win over
it. In sacred study, you are called to a subjective voice, and to find out
about yourself. That is the sadhana of listening.

If you undertake study as a sadhana, your participation is unique. What you
study must have the force of sacredness. It must be authoritative to you. And
you must have some trust in the source, and accept it as a subjective voice to
you from within. You should have already tested it via your casual reading,
examined it to the point that it authenticates itself and shows its alliance
to other great communications from the Great Tradition, and come to the
conclusion that the author is a Teacher for you. Once this is done, then you
should be able to take up the sadhana of listening, and approach the Teaching
as sacred literature, and the author as Teacher. But you can only do this
when you feel the Way is authentic and authoritative, and when the Master is
also.

This should be one of the prerequisites for becoming a student in the Way of
the Heart. You must have found yourself to be in a sacred sphere. And from
then on you yourself must honor the Teaching in your study. So in a real
sense, even to study you must bring a unique discipline, which is to
transcend the mechanics and habits of academic study, and convert it into
sadhana. You are no longer involved in examining an objective text from an
objective point of view. Rather, you must allow it to speak to you as you
Are, Where you Are, and in the context of your being. do not do something to
the text or argument to objectify it or abstract it. Let it do its work, and
find yourself out. The purpose is self-transcendence, which is a matter of
struggle with self, and not with the literature or the Teacher. These errors
must be understood and transcended at the outset, to make full use of the
sacred Teaching."(1987)


Self-Understanding Is the Basis for Understanding the Great Tradition
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Da Avabhasa: "You have to awaken to a present understanding of the real
factors of existence that will permit you to reassociate with the Divine
Reality in ultimate terms, in universal terms. And when you do that, then you
can discriminate between that Awakened disposition and all of the accretions
of religious lore which are present in the mass of religious cultures. By
coming to this understanding and awakening, you can transcend the dogmas of
your own time, which are not particularly religious in nature. They are
secular, represented by the point of view of scientism.

By coming to this awakened understanding of the Living Divine Reality, you
can revalue the living Adepts, Their biographies are somewhat difficult to
discern from the mass of lore that gets associated with these individuals
over time, but their Presence nonetheless shines through when you have
awakened to this understanding yourself. In that case of practitioners of the
Way of the Heart, you have the Heart-Master representing this same Awakened
Work. Your relationship to the Heart-Master in present time is thus a link to
the Adept tradition throughout all of history. And your awakened
understanding enables you not only to relate to the Divine, the Living
Present Divine, but to discriminate among all of the teachings, religious
points of view, and conventional or secular points of view in the present and
in every historical epoch that you may study."(1981)

Discover the Grand Argument of the Seven Schools of God-Talk
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Da Avabhasa: "Even books in the seventh stage section of "The Basket Of
Tolerance" list are limited. Who ever told you about Transfiguration,
Transformation, Indifference, and Translation [the Divine Process that happen
in the seventh stage of life]? That is not to be found in the Great
Tradition. Certain aspects of it may be implicit there, but basically it has
not been communicated before, nor has a right understanding of the seven
stages of life and placement of the various traditions in the context of the
stages of life been considered before. The Great Tradition does not speak for
itself. Only the Master of the Great Tradition can make sense out of it, and
he is not merely to be believed. You must enter into full consideration. You
must consider my argument. My argument in the form of "The Basket Of
Tolerance" appears not only in the commentaries, but in the choices of the
books and the placement of them and the headings that designate their
placement. It is a Teaching demonstration in itself. Even that one
demonstration or leela that is "The Basket of Tolerance" is something you can
consider for the rest of your life. You cannot exhaust it, even though it is
also finite."(1987)

"It is impossible for me to exhaust my commentary on "The Basket Of
Tolerance". The commentaries I have made and the introductions that I have
written must be a sufficient suggestion to you to guide your real study of
it. When you read the religious philosophy section, the first section of "The
Basket Of Tolerance" list, you must read it with discrimination, and you must
ask yourself the question: "Why is this book here? What point in the Argument
is this?" "The Wisdom of Insecurity", by Alan Watts, is the first book on the
list, Does that mean it is the best book of all time, or the ultimate,
essential, primary book? Is that why it is first? It does not mean anything
of the kind. So why is it there, and what is its importance? "Memories,
Dreams, Reflections", by Carl Jung, is the second book. Why is that book
there?

You are not supposed to just these books and indulge in the personal views of
the author and indulge in your own illusions, and presume that maybe this one
particular point of view is true. That is a childish or adolescent approach,
that is college-level academic nonsense. Why is the book there? What kind of
discrimination are you supposed to bring to it? That is the real question.
And what does it represent that you must overcome in yourself? What is its
particle of representation in this great process? You must ask yourself great
questions and not oblige me to discourse on every sentence, every book. You
have to bring more to it. I am not here to give you every last word that
could be spoken about everything on the list. I am here to give you basic
guidance, and then you are going to have to struggle with no commentary, just
a suggestion, just dealing with yourself. Even though I have given you a
great deal of guidance, it still requires you to struggle with yourself, and
not just indulge in these hairy authors and their illusions. They are
dramatizing illusions that you must deal with in yourself, and that is why
they are there.

I have addressed all these books in general in the preface to "The Basket Of
Tolerance". Use that material, along with the commentaries in "The Basket Of
Tolerance", to study these expressions with discrimination. They are not
presented to you as ideals or ultimate shiny examples of the perfect Truth.
You will, in any moment, as I have said in the preface, presume that this
point of view, this expression, is sufficient, perfect, or substantial enough
to cause or justify the arising of doubt in yourself. You will get into these
kinds of mental dispositions because that is what the mind is all about.

The mind is a hog. The mind is a fat-bellied pain in the ass. It changes from
hour to hour to hour to hour - it is your suffering, it is the obstacle, it
is egoity. "The Basket Of Tolerance" is a great display of mind, that is what
it is altogether. It is just a display of mind. And it registers in you and
tends to delude you. Therefore, use my consideration, so that you will not be
deluded. Use it to understand yourself. Inform yourself further by
discriminative consideration of the Great tradition and discriminative
consideration of your own involvement in that tradition, or in those ideas,
communications, points of view, and tendencies. Always you must address it in
this way. You must do sadhana with "The Basket Of Tolerance".

"The Basket Of Tolerance" is not a slice of the Ultimate, or the great bright
star of shining magnificence. It is a display of limits, an argument of
limits. Even the books in the seventh stage section of "The Basket Of
Tolerance" expose a variety of limits that you must understand by considering
my argument, observing yourself, understanding the seven stages of life,
understanding the Great Process as it is, studying all the books that precede
the seventh stage list. At every point in the study of that list you must be
prepared to study it with discrimination and be free of it - not attached to
it, not deluded by it. It is really the study of yourself, of the ego's
argument for progressive transcendence. You must use me, my Company, my Word,
to help you - not merely to believe it. Consider it, make it one with
yourself intelligently, and bring that to bear on the study of all of these
representatives of mankind. Every book on the list must be approached that
way - it is a sadhana. And if you do not do it that way or you do it
otherwise, then every book is some sort of delusion, it is a whore, a
peripheral lover, an opportunity to become distracted, consoled, and deluded
by yourself.

It does not make any difference what these various authors say, you will
delude yourself it you are deluded at all. They propose mind forms that are
in you, within the realm of your possibility. You are going to have to
struggle with every book, and you should struggle with every one, just as you
struggle with every moment of life. It is a struggle, and ordeal. You must
transcend yourself with every book - that is what I intend. That is what "The
Basket Of Tolerance" is for, don't you know?

The real point in studying the books on "The Basket Of Tolerance" list is not
what you can remember about them, but what you encounter and overcome in the
process of reading. What you are relieved of is more important than what you
can remember afterwards. Years from now you may remember nothing about books
that you have read already, but the moments of those readings, properly
guided and considered, should relieve you of something. That is what you will
have gained, rather than what you can recollect in your memory."(1987)

cyee@bruce.cs.monash.edu.au (Chut Ngeow YEE) (06/21/91)

Understanding and Transcending the Difficulty of Study
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Da Avabhasa: "At first, the student's form of meditation is study, a constant
confrontation with the Teaching. He will see his turning away, his
contraction, his avoidance, in all kinds of ways. Eventually, this will
become an intense form of self-observation and insight.

Do not expect me to propose that you become anti-intellectual. I expect you
to bust your ass in studying this Work. You will tend, however, to yield to
the dilettante's view of the mind if you are lazy and do not apply yourself
to study."

"The usual student develops all kinds of agonizing devices to retain
information long enough to take an examination: underlining, keeping notes on
cards, memorizing, grinding the material over and over again in his head.
Then when the examination is over, it is all forgotten! This is because
people think that the mind is a little box in the head with only a certain
number of volts, and that they must play all kinds of games to get it to hold
things.

But the student must, through one or another crisis in his life, come to the
point where he trusts his mind, realizes that it is not a little box that he
has to play games with to get it to retain and do things, but it is
completely fluid, formless, boundless, capable of remembering everything,
doing anything he wants. And when he begins to make that assumption, while
being a student at the same time, study will become much easier form him.

Understanding must take place in the midst of that whole affair of looking at
the page and falling asleep and drifting away and thinking. Understanding
must awaken in the midst of life, and so it must also apply to this
particular activity of study. Understanding is not an unconscious activity.
It depends entirely on the force of your insight at the level of
consciousness at any moment.

Ordinarily we have to be interested in something in order to be able to learn
or to deal with it in any way. Otherwise we suspect we will go to sleep or
get angry. When you are in school, you have to study things, whether you are
interestered in them or not, and so school provides the circumstance in which
you have to deal with the mind, at least to a certain degree. In this case
you are not about to get a degree. You are not about to get paid or applauded
or anything else for studying this course. So there is no external
motivation. And if sadhana is going to be meaningful in relation to you in
this study, you must first of all find some reason for doing it. But,
ultimately, the problem we are describing is not one of interset. It is one
of resistance. It is resistance, contraction, the avoidance of relationship
enacted relative to the functions of the conscious mind.

Now it is clear enough that there is something interesting to you about
reading books about God and and Divine Realization and Truth. If you have
some degree of interest in all that, then this course won't seem so alien, as
though you had to pack in a whole mass of stuff of which you really had no
comprehension at all. But, fundamentally, you must live spiritual life. Bring
the understanding that is growing in your practice to bear on all the
incidents of your life from day to day, including this study.

There is really no mystery about what is happening when you are sitting down
to read, any more than there is a mystery about what is happening in Satsang
and meditation. There is this turning away, this contraction, this avoidance
of relationship. When there is no longer any turning, the mind becomes very
useful, just like everything else does. It becomes open, free. And it becomes
useful. It is able to deal with things outside itself, information, data,
things to observe. It also becomes open and active within itself.

There is no dilemma in the mind itself, any more than there is a dilemma in
any other function. All dilemmas are your own creation in this instant, and
until there is penetrating understanding of your own functional existence
from moment to moment, your life is just and endless enumeration of dilemmas,
of problematic situations. So you sit down to read and that is difficult. You
sit down to be in the Company of the Heart-Master and that is difficult. You
have to go to work today and that is difficult. Everything is surrounded with
massive complexities, and these are your own creations. You will continue to
find difficulties and dilemmas everywhere, until you begin to see something
fundamental about yourself. And in the case of that kind of insight, real
changes begin to occur, when you happen to be reading or when you happen to
go to work. This is the same understanding that becomes active under all
conditions."(1983)

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Phew. That was more typing than I thought. I hope I haven't lost everybody
yet. It must have been the sixth time that I read those essays, but they are
just as shocking and delightful as the first time I discovered them. Every
time I am reminded of the phoney and superficial air of tolerance and
discrimination and faked spirituality that I tend to putting on. It seems to
me that Da Avabhasa is saying that real tolerance and discrimination are
attributes of Enlightenment, and yet the very things that are supposed to be
the end results are demanded from the very beginning!

As a student beginner of the Way of the Heart, I can tell you that we are
literally busting our ass in meeting our Guru demand to understand, to be
conscious, and to function in every aspects of our life, beginning from
money, food and sex. I am not sure how the hell I got myself into this mess.
I have not much inclination and capacity to take up any form of discipline,
but one day I found myself madly in love, crazily in love, and that's the
beginning of the end....

Yee.