[misc.handicap] rain and pain

Fred.Kreitzer@p0.f10.n137.z1.fidonet.org (Fred Kreitzer) (06/21/91)

Index Number: 16338

Hi There
Got your message about feedback and visualzation.
I found that the feedback had one major limitation, it could only be
used when you want to remain in a state of alertness, it requires so
much mental power, that you can drive and do it. My Tapes have the
following warning on them, " not for use while driving, or operating any
type of machinery", " may cause drowsiness ".
I have been able to use feedback to raise or lower my heart rate,
breathing rate and tempiture. The therory is that if I open up the blood
vessles, more blood will go to the back and legs and aid in pain
reduction. The system works, but still what do I do when I am in pain
and have to drive?, cant take much meds. and drive, pain gets so bad at
times, I have had to stop and take a walk, rest about 1/2 hour and then
go on further. Sometimes a 0ne hour trip to MacDill might take two hours
and long trips cant be made without another driver. My daughter have
been driving for a year, so its easy to talk her into driving atleast 50
%, the wife will drive alittle, leaving me to drive maybe 2  half hour
shifts in a normal trip day of 6 to 8 hours.
This is one of the hardest things for me to get used to, I flew sometime
12 to 16 hour at a time and on the ragged edge of the envelope the whole
time. I cant sit still, yet I cant keep up physically with my mind.
Remember, my whole life was one long terror, with short periods of calm.
I could and would produce a large amounts of Endorphins, nw that I live
a calm life, its like a woman going thru "the change", I just do not
make the chemicals any more, so the only thing left is take the pain or
use just alittle pain med, just to cut the edge off it.
As far as sitting in a meadow and looking up in the sky, I dont have the
temperment for it, unless there is a whole wing of choppers flying over,
I often sit in the yard and watch the police or medical choppers fly and
listen to them on my scanner, so I can feel like I am still part of it
all.
Later                         Sarasota Fred

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