harrison@shawnee.cis.ohio-state.edu (randolph l harrison) (01/20/90)
OK, I need some good, sound advice, I've never been much of one who worries (or even thinks) about the future when it comes to a relationship. However, I met a very special ladyfriend last September. We had know each other for quite a while, but we quite unexpectedly started seeing each other only last Fall. Anyhow, our relationship has been surprisingly successful -- I had been quite the cynic until meeting her. For the first time in my life I see some potential for a lasting relationship. This may all sound trivial but this is the first time I've ever been involved with someone and felt good about it. I'm still not even sure that I believe that a *good* relationship is actually possible; but I am living the evidence. The problem: Well, you see, I graduate in August (yes I'm finally nearing the end of my college 'education'), and she graduates in Dec. of 1990. This is really no big deal as I can only take one day at a time and see what the future holds for us -- BUT my real problem is the fact that I find myself thinking about the possibilities between the two of us, A LOT. The worst part is that after all of these emotions I have for her, I still have not been able to tell her that I love her. I guess that I just can't rid myself of my cynicism and doubts. I just really want to *enjoy* the only *real* relationship I've ever had...why am I having such a hard time doing that??? ---Randy