harrison@shawnee.cis.ohio-state.edu (randolph l harrison) (01/20/90)
OK, I need some good, sound advice,
I've never been much of one who worries (or even thinks) about the
future when it comes to a relationship. However, I met a very special
ladyfriend last September. We had know each other for quite a while,
but we quite unexpectedly started seeing each other only last Fall.
Anyhow, our relationship has been surprisingly successful -- I had
been quite the cynic until meeting her. For the first time in my life I
see some potential for a lasting relationship. This may all sound trivial
but this is the first time I've ever been involved with someone and felt
good about it. I'm still not even sure that I believe that a *good*
relationship is actually possible; but I am living the evidence.
The problem: Well, you see, I graduate in August (yes I'm finally
nearing the end of my college 'education'), and she graduates in Dec. of
1990. This is really no big deal as I can only take one day at a time and
see what the future holds for us -- BUT my real problem is the fact that I
find myself thinking about the possibilities between the two of us, A LOT.
The worst part is that after all of these emotions I have for her, I still
have not been able to tell her that I love her. I guess that I just can't
rid myself of my cynicism and doubts. I just really want to *enjoy* the
only *real* relationship I've ever had...why am I having such a hard time
doing that???
---Randy