[soc.feminism] How feminism has failed me

eboneste@BBN.COM (Liz Bonesteel) (11/18/89)

Before I get into all of this, I would like to make it clear that I am
a feminist, I have always been a feminist, and I can say with a
certain amount of confidence that I always will be a feminist.  To me,
feminism means believing that a person's dreams and accomplishments
should not be restricted by their gender; that the (implicit or
explicit) "Girls/boys don't do that" is counterproductive garbage.
This goes far beyond any personal experience with oppression; it
strikes me as a basic human right.  Our limitations should be just
that:  *our* limitations, not the limitations other people have told
us we have.

I feel the need to say that because the crux of this posting is (as
the title implies) how feminism, as practiced today, has failed me.

Things have, indeed, changed in the last twenty years.  I sincerely
doubt it would have been easy for me, a young, unmarried female, to
find a job, no matter how good my qualifications.  My mother, who went
to law school when I was eight, was considered strange; now, a partner
at a large Boston lawfirm, she sees female lawyers every day.  It is
still not as easy for a woman to be successful in the business world
as it is for a man, but it is substantially easier than it was when my
mother first started working.  It is accepted, if not always welcomed,
that women are a permanent part of the workforce.  Women have been
accepted into what was once an exclusively male realm.

This is all well and good, but sometimes I think it undermines the
whole point.  By entering the workforce, we have indeed shown that
professional productivity is a human ability, not restricted or
partitioned by gender.  But what of the traditionally female realm?
What of putting compassion before success?  What of valuing - and
perhaps sacrificing for - a loving and supportive family?  What of
trying diplomacy before grandstanding?  These are things that have
always been considered "feminine", but in my (albeit limited)
experience has led me to believe otherwise.  My male friends often
feel these things too, but they are loath to discuss them because
they're not *supposed* to feel them.  We have told women that it is
okay to have a strong and full intellectual life, but we have yet to
tell men that it is okay to have a strong and full emotional life.  We
have failed to take that which is traditionally "feminine" and give it
true value.

So how does this affect me?  Obviously, as a professional woman, I
should be all set, right?  Wrong.  I find myself more and more falling
into the mindset of my male friends.  I confessed to a female
colleague that I would like to have children someday, and she gave me
a puzzled look and said "But you seem so preofessional!" The fact is,
if having a family will hurt my career, I don't really care.  I want a
family more than I want a career.  I'd rather not have to make a
choice; but if I do, it's already made.  And you know what?  I feel
*guilty* because of that.  Here I am, a modern woman, as pushy and
aggressive and ambitious as any guy who ever came down the pike, and
I'd give it up in a second if I thought I had to.  Thanks to modern
feminism, my pushy and agressive and ambitious side is accepted and
even lauded; but the side of me that wants to build a family is seen
as an abberation, a mystery.  When I admit the importance of that side
of me, I cause *confusion*.

Feminism, to me, means making decisions that are free from outside
expectations.  I find myself incapable of doing that.  I have been
well indoctrinated into the "I can do anything you can do" mindset,
and I believe it.  But when I start thinking about a family, and
decisions I most probably will have to face, a voice starts whispering
"Traitor!".  When I realize the things I want the most have nothing to
do with professional ambitions, I feel like I'm letting the side down.
Maybe that's just me.  But I do think we are in error if we believe
teaching women they can do anything men can do is the whole solution.
By neglecting that which has always been traditionally feminine, we
are shooting ourselves in the foot.  We are, in effect, saying,
"You're right, all that stuff is worthless, but we can be YOU, so
we're not worthless anymore." Instead of freeing ourselves, we are
simply choosing a different set of shackles.  Freedom means modifying
the focus of an entire society, and we've barely begun.

Family is not a priority for everyone, nor would I suggest it should
be.  But neither is career a priority for everyone - not even for all
men.  Personally, I'm waiting for the day when either decision - or no
decision at all - is considered both viable and admirable.

The eternal optimist,

Liz
---
"Nobody ever lay on his deathbed regretting
 how little time he spent with his job."
- paraphrased from ex-Sen. Paul Tsongas

rshapiro@BBN.COM (Richard Shapiro) (11/21/89)

I'm not at all sure that a man has any business responding to this
very interesting article. But, I'll risk it. I really have thought
about many of these issues, though of course from a different
perspective. Feel free to post or send email (rshapiro@bbn.com) if you
think it's inapproriate.

In article <48390@bbn.COM> eboneste@BBN.COM (Liz Bonesteel) writes:
>To me feminism means believing that a person's dreams and accomplishments
>should not be restricted by their gender...
>Our limitations should be just
>that:  *our* limitations, not the limitations other people have told
>us we have.

The problem is: how do you distinguish these two? I think it's a
confusion between the two (and perhaps a bit of over-optimism) which is
at the root of the failure you mention ("feminism, as practiced today,
has failed me").

The crucial issue you focus on is having a family & children:

> I want a
>family more than I want a career.  I'd rather not have to make a
>choice; but if I do, it's already made.  And you know what?  I feel
>*guilty* because of that.

OK, consider for a moment the state of feminism. It's an in-progress
revolution, not a finished one. All of us are, to one degree or
another, in-progress people, part way between one gender system and
another.  The single most salient characteristic of this half-way
state is the need to *relax*, to stop struggling against something as
formidable as a gender system. And what does this need to stop
struggling feel like?  It can manifest itself precisely as if it were
a personal choice. What I mean is, it doesn't feel any different from
a personal decision because it *isn't* any different. The whole point
of ideology (eg the gender ideology which makes women "family
oriented") is that it works through individuals JUST AS IF we were
making our own choices of our own free will, choices which "just
happen" to be in conformity with that ideology.

Thus the guilt. Something in you knows what's happening ("a voice
starts whispering 'Traitor!'") and why. What happens when you give up
your job to raise children? Are you married in the conventional way?
Did you make that choice yourself? Since you're not working, do you
wind up economically dependent on a wage-earning man? Since you're at
home anyway, do you wind up doing the housework? Do you begin to defer
to your husband on issues involving public (as opposed to private)
life? You can make each of these choices, or seem to, and they can
appear quite rational taken one at a time. And yet..what does it seem
to be leading towards? Is it surprising you don't feel quite right
about the whole thing? 

>By neglecting that which has always been traditionally feminine, we
>are shooting ourselves in the foot.

True but...at this point, there's nothing else to be done. It's like
giving up an addiction. You have to give it up, completely; you can't
hang on to it no matter how comforting it is, and no matter how
beneficial it might be in another, very different context. If you do,
you'll never really have made a choice at all. 

These are very hard and serious problems that strike at the core of
why feminism is so hard to maintain. It isn't easy to live in a
relentless state of struggle. I don't think feminism has failed you.
It's just showed you that much remains to be done.

tim@toad.com (Tim Maroney) (11/22/89)

Liz Bonesteel raised some excellent points about the problems faced by
women who want families in the modern workplace.  What I can't
understand is how she blames feminism for them.  All the problems she
cited result from the old pre-feminist view that people who are serious
about their careers do not spend a great deal of time attending to
domestic matters.  Traditionally this was done by saying "men" instead
of "people" in the previous sentence's phrase, and assuming there to be
a full-time domestic servant (the wife) taking care of such matters.
What feminism has won so far is perhaps only a recognition of some
women as "honorary men", but it has always tried for far more.

Modern feminism considers child care an extremely important issue, and
politically has pushed throughout the eighties for child care that
would let people raise families and pursue careers.  That feminism has
not so far succeeded is hardly something you can blame on feminism; the
fault lies in the inertia of patriarchal society.  Things proceed in
stages, generally small stages, and it's unrealistic to blame feminism
for not delivering all desirable social change at once.  If feminism
were not trying, and trying hard, to resolve the kinds of problems Ms.
Bonesteel related so well, then it would be to blame.  But it *is*
trying to allow self-determination for women in this regard and others.

And, Ms. Bonesteel, I have been reading feminist literature since my
early teens, and I can't count the number of times I've seen women
acknowledge that it is perfectly all right to devote your life to
children and the home if that's what you really want, regardless of
your gender.  What has been fought -- and to some extent, won -- is the
freedom to make that choice rather than being forced into that
occupation.  If your co-workers, male or female, express such
patriarchal, unrefined, pre-feminist attitudes as you have expressed,
that is hardly the fault of a movement which has consistently held the
exact opposite.
-- 
Tim Maroney, Mac Software Consultant, sun!hoptoad!tim, tim@toad.com

FROM THE FOOL FILE:
"Those Mayas were sacrificing not only pagan children, but baptized
 Christian children, for crying out loud!  And they were carrying out
 those sacrifices, those barbarities, with great savagery, without
 giving the victims the benefit of the humane types of death that the
 European Church accorded even to heretics and witches during that
 century, such as burning at the stake."
		-- Matthew Rosenblatt, rec.arts.books

geb@cadre.dsl.pitt.edu (Gordon E. Banks) (11/22/89)

Liz, you've said here things that have needed to be said for a long
time, especially in this forum.  Feminism, like any ism, can become a
tyrany applied to stifle the individual when it starts to specify how
we must live or be ostracized.  I've seen a lot of women who have been
pretty unhappy trying to live up to other people's notions of the
feminist ideal.  In the same way men who don't fit the macho mold can
be made to be unhappy.  I'd like to see a society where everyone can
choose their own way without constraints put on them by other people
(as long as they don't violate the rights of others of course).  Then
we'll all be liberated.  Do what you want and hang them if they don't
approve.

rshapiro@BBN.COM (Richard Shapiro) (11/22/89)

In article <1989Nov21.225322.25204@cadre.dsl.pitt.edu> geb@cadre.dsl.pitt.edu (Gordon E. Banks) writes:
>Feminism, like any ism, can become a
>tyrany applied to stifle the individual when it starts to specify how
>we must live or be ostracized...
>I'd like to see a society where everyone can
>choose their own way without constraints put on them by other people


But, Gordon, you don't *really* believe we're as autonmous as all
that, do you?  That's one of the major lessons of feminism: that much
of what we are comes from outside any particular individual.  The
tyranny isn't "isms"; the tyranny is the ideology we all live in, the
social forces that we don't even see ordinarily because they're so
much a part of what makes each of us who we are.

We will ALWAYS live and "choose our own way" within the "constraints"
of the social context (other people, if you like). This is what it
means to live as social animals. Feminism has simply made visible and
explicit some of what was previously hidden and implicit. It allows
some other options which weren't there before -- it provides the hint
of a path to another, less discriminatory ideology. It's never easy or
comfortable to lose one's social moorings; but it's a necessary first
step.

marla@Sun.COM (Marla Parker) (11/23/89)

I have worked through the same thoughts as Liz Bonesteel described
with the following exceptions.  
 
First, none of my female friends or colleagues are as insensitive 
as the woman who said, "But you are so professional!".  Most of my 
friends are about 4 years older than I am, so they are intimately 
familiar with the struggle to choose between a career and caring 
for small children.  I know three who have suspended their careers 
and five who employ au pairs.

Second,  the idea that feminism has failed me is too abstract for
my taste.  I characterize the problem we face as a severe lack of
role models, for both men and women.  Here we are, my husband and
I, determined to build a marriage of equality based on mutual
respect.  How do we do it?  Whom can we emulate?  *Certainly* NOT
our parents.  We both come from extremely sexist families.  We can
overcome to some degree our sexist training, but we cannot purge
it entirely from our personalities.  We are products of our parents
and their guidance.  

The questions about how to handle two careers and children were not 
even asked by our parents, much less answered.

I don't think that feminism or any ideology can or should answer
these questions.  We have to struggle and answer them ourselves, so
that our children and grandchildren will be able to look at our
lives and glean some small amount of guidance from them.  They
may not have the answers at their fingertips, either, but at least
they are unlikely to be as clueless as most of our generation is,
facing these issues for the first time in the history of most
American families.


Marla Parker		(415) 336-2538
marla@sun.com

maslak@unix.SRI.COM (Valerie Maslak) (11/23/89)

Liz, I agree with the response that seemed to be saying that
feminism hasn't failed, it's just had greater success in some
directions than in others.... and still has a ways to go.

My SO and I are currently wrestling with the problems that arise
when a MAN is about to be economically dependent on a WOMAN,
and believe me, the system is NOT used to that yet.

Valerie Maslak

era1987@violet.Berkeley.EDU (11/25/89)

In reply to <48390@bbn.COM> eboneste@BBN.COM (Liz Bonesteel):

Feminism hasn't failed you, Liz.  As a professional woman who
wants a family, feminism has given you much greater opportunities
than your foremothers ever dreamed of.  As an optimist, you probably
assume that your marriage won't be one of the 50% than end in
divorce.  But if it does, your standard of living may drop but you
won't be left in the dire straits of most divorcees before you, thanks
to feminism.  

Of the 50% of marriages that *don't* end in divorce, do you know
how many couples who hate each other, fight constantly, and leave
their children with lifelong emotional scars, stay together because
the traditional wife can't afford to leave and doesn't know how
to go about working?  And how many wives endure battering for
years because they blame themselves for not pleasing their
husbands properly or believe that divorce is a sin?

If you want to get married and raise a family, Liz, thanks to
feminism I don't have to worry as much about your survival as
previously.  Moreover, within the marriage you'll probably be
treated more as an equal partner than as a chattel because you've
already proved yourself in the outside world and your husband will
know that if you become a dependant it is through choice rather
than necessity.

Spend a few years living with married women in countries where
feminism hasn't yet become a powerful movement and then tell
me  that feminism has failed you.  Watch them have 15 kids, half
the kids die, be unable to work, have husbands who spend their
money on drink and other women, etc., etc., and then tell me that
feminism has failed you.  Feminism hasn't taken away your right
to be a traditional woman, it has just made it more possible for
you to survive such a choice.

--Mark

js@phoenix.princeton.edu (Jay Sekora) (11/25/89)

I think a large part of the problem is that feminism as practiced has
had to focus almost exclusively on women and their position in
(male-dominated) society.  In my opinion, feminism is really one facet
of respect and love for people as people, as themselves, as individuals.
We need a term for `feminism' because we live in a society where we are
taught not to love and respect men and women equally; and women get the
shabby end of the deal.  But the point of feminism is making *individual
people's* lives better.  Another way of saying this is that we call what
we do `feminism' when it's directed at undoing the damage of sexism, or
`the civil rights movement' when it's directed at undoing the damage of
racial discrimination, or `the democracy movement' when it's directed
against the oppression of totalitarian governments.  This is not to say
that labels like these are not appropriate and useful, but when we
pigeonhole things like this, things get lost in the cracks if we're not
careful.

Since so much of the feminist struggle has had to be preoccupied with
clearing a way for women in the workplace, and since men (and women in
patriarchal society) have put so much energy into forcing women into
roles as nurturing, self-sacrificing wives and mothers, a woman's
desire to raise kids and support the people she loves may be one of the
things that tend to fall into the cracks in the nomenclature.  In my
opinion, a person's right to be affirmed and appreciated in the (chosen)
role of caregiver *is* important, and it *is* part of my ideological
commitment, and it is "of whole cloth" with those parts of my commitment
to justice and love and human dignity that have more specific names.

As a man who considers the most important and worthwhile part of
himself to be his ability and willingness to nurture and support and
listen to the people he cares about (and incidentally, who melts into
the floor to the accompaniment of muffled cooing noises when he sees a
baby), I think I share some of Liz's feelings.  It is ironic that,
within a `traditional' feminist framework, I as a man can be proud of
them while she as a women feels somehow guilty or traitorous because
of them.  But if feminism can sanction and support my nurturing side,
it certainly can sanction and support hers as well.

Sorry if this isn't terribly coherent; I should have gone to sleep a
long time ago.

-j.

gcf@mydog.uucp (Gordon Fitch) (11/27/89)

eboneste@BBN.COM (Liz Bonesteel) writes:
}                              ... [T]he crux of this posting is (as
}the title implies) how feminism, as practiced today, has failed me.
}
}...[recounts the accomplishment of feminism in getting women
}into the formerly mostly-male middle-class job world]...
}
}This is all well and good, but sometimes I think it undermines the
}whole point.  By entering the workforce, we have indeed shown that
}professional productivity is a human ability, not restricted or
}partitioned by gender.  But what of the traditionally female realm?
}What of putting compassion before success?  What of valuing - and
}perhaps sacrificing for - a loving and supportive family?  What of
}trying diplomacy before grandstanding?  These are things that have
}always been considered "feminine", but in my (albeit limited)
}experience has led me to believe otherwise.  My male friends often
}feel these things too, but they are loath to discuss them because
}they're not *supposed* to feel them.  We have told women that it is
}okay to have a strong and full intellectual life, but we have yet to
}tell men that it is okay to have a strong and full emotional life.  We
}have failed to take that which is traditionally "feminine" and give it
}true value.

Several weeks ago I posted something which I think relates to
the author's problem with feminism:

}                                 [T]here is more than one current
}in modern feminism.  I see two major currents, which have become
}divergent in recent years.
}
}One form of feminism involves fundamental social values, and was
}the form espoused by the radical feminists of the '60s.  This
}form involves an analysis of social problems as deriving from
}"patriarchy", that is, male domination (first, of women and
}children, and subsequently of other males through hierarchy and
}slavery.)

}The other feminism accepts, for the most part, contemporary
}social values, insisting only that women should be able to
}participate fully in things as they are.  That is, rather than 
}overthrow patriarchy (in the form of capitalism or whatever), the 
}adherents of this view would rather see women populating its 
}higher reaches in equal numbers with men.

The second feminism mostly succeeded, at least in breaking 
holes in the walls, but the first seems to have disappeared, 
except for literary work.  It is no longer a political force 
of any significance.  Consequently, "feminism" simply led to 
the incorporation of more people into the existing system of
domination, much as the civil rights or labor movements did
for the people to whom they referred.

Thus, while women are now theoretically free to make as much 
money as men, neither women nor men are free to exhibit
certain "feminine" characteristics, at least not without 
paying for them as if they were an expensive addiction.  The 
one who is concerned with her or his home life, children, 
community, and so forth is not the one who succeeds in 
business.

That, in itself, would not be a great problem if it were not 
for certain contingencies.  One, a very important one, is the
falling standard of living of the middle and lower classes.
As it gets harder and harder to get by, one's "addictions" 
become relatively more and more expensive.  In 1965, choosing 
a less worldly, ambitious way of life may have meant not having 
the latest Nikon; in 1989, it may mean becoming homeless.

There are many other such contingencies.  One of the most
important is the effect of profit-oriented corporate behavior
on the physical and social environment, which in the next few
years will reach a crisis level -- not a journalistic crisis,
a real one.  A "caring" attitude toward the environment would
never have allowed things to reach this point, but such an
attitude would have produced fewer Nikons -- in the short run,
anyway.

The system of domination reaches from the top to the bottom:
the personal is indeed political.  This is where feminism 
begins to connect to very general political and economic 
questions: to wit, why are we supporting this kind of society? 
Do we care?  What can we do about it?
--
Gordon Fitch  |  uunet!hombre!mydog!gcf

ST9@jane.uh.edu (Rich Bainter AKA Pug) (11/30/89)

[This is a combination of the original post and a followup, as I
requested a clarification of some details.  If the posting is a 
little choppy, it is probably my fault.  I changed no words, simply
tried to order the various parts.  --clt]

> Modern feminism considers child care an extremely important issue, and
> politically has pushed throughout the eighties for child care that
> would let people raise families and pursue careers.  That feminism has
> not so far succeeded is hardly something you can blame on feminism; the
> fault lies in the inertia of patriarchal society.  Things proceed in
> stages, generally small stages, and it's unrealistic to blame feminism
> for not delivering all desirable social change at once.  If feminism
> were not trying, and trying hard, to resolve the kinds of problems Ms.
> Bonesteel related so well, then it would be to blame.  But it *is*
> trying to allow self-determination for women in this regard and others.

a) When Germany is on the line at 9pm on Thanksgiving, *Someone* has
to sacrifice family for job.  The rest of the world doesn't
particularly care about our quaint social customs.  If your company
doesn't stay on the ball, the other companies will (and they will get
the business).  Some people point out that this causes employees to
burn out faster.  My reply is that the people who burn out quickly in
such a fashion obviously are not qualified for the high standards/high
paying jobs where greater greater stamina is required.  As an aside: I
know I do not have the stamina to work these kind of jobs.  But I do
recognize that all the chief officers in my company (who make 75k and
up) do work 12 hour days frequently.  And if they are needed in New
York or in Boston then they go.  Businesses have deadlines.  If they
are not met the business can fail, or at least lose lots of money.
Sometimes the deadlines are loose.  Sometimes they are okay.  But
sometimes they are tight and fatal.  If you do not file certain forms
by certain dates your company can be fined huge amounts of money.  If
this means you work 30 hours straight then that is what you have to
do.  I choose not to.  I work smaller hours.  This means I will not
have a mansion, a rolls, and a trip to Europe every year.

b) Companies pay people large amounts of money to sacrifice huge
amounts of their personal time.  An executive that works 14 hour days
is a lot more valuable than 2 executives (or even 3) who work 8 hour
days.  Even more so for one who puts in the time when it is really
needed.  Like doing tax work during the Xmas and New Years holidays.

c) Any feminism that causes a dearth in babies among proponents of
that brand of feminism is probably doomed to failure.

d) Business can't afford the changes being asked for.  Already we are
losing jobs because workers in general expect excessive wages and
benefits in return for the work they do.  (This applies to the leaders
especially.)  Remember, we no longer have a monopoly on production as
we did in the 1950's.  We are competing economically with people
making 1% of what we do.
  The reason the birth rate is low right now is that there is no
incentive to have children in the US.  The standard deduction has
grown much slower per child than inflation (It should be around
5,000).  Add food, extra rent, and child care and you have strong
disincentives.
  As a result, required child care seems like an okay idea.  However,
ignoring the fact that a government managed child care system would
most likely be an expensive mess after 10 years in operation, once
incentives to have children rise the birth rate will also rise.
  This means businesses will have to give more pregnancy leaves than
currently.  I have heard the argument that no person should be so
important that they can't take 6 weeks (months) off to be with their
child.  But, that is exactly what *leaders* are for.  They are
essential.  The troops may not be but they are paid accordingly.  Case
in point: Company I know of is completely the same except for the
president.  This position has no obvious responsibilities.  However, 6
months after the new officer comes in business is down 30%.  Morale is
down.  Productivity is down.  The industrial side has walked out twice
now.  Can a woman in this position sacrifice the rest of the company
because she wants to have a baby?  Or worse, finds she is suddenly
going to have one?
  In a capitalist society the business with the lowest labor costs
survives longer and makes higher profits.  The effects of pregnancy
leave on a large company are hidden by its size.  But a majority of
employees work for small businesses.  Can a 10 person shop afford for
2 people to be gone with pay for 6 months?  Six weeks?  Maybe if it is
an I/O clerk but what if it is a leader?

How to work it out?  I don't know.  I don't think women should be
treated any different than men.  But, I think that in the long run
women will not desire equality and the responsibilities and sacrifices
that it brings.  I think that at least 50% of the female population
strongly does not wish to be assigned to combat duty.  I do not think
that a majority of women wish to give up their stranglehold on the
children in divorce settlements.  I do not think women wish to give up
their implied right to *not work*.  I.e. I know of women who have quit
working when they had a boyfriend or husband.  They were not viewed as
"bums" or "wastrels."  Though I know of no men personally I am aware
of men who have done the same thing and they *are* expected to work.
I do not think that women are willing to make the sacrifices required
by business of men with regards to family.  So... change business?
Won't work.
  Conclusion: In the long run most women never be equals.  But, why
not try.  It may work for a while.  It doesn't seem fair not to.  All
I'm saying is that I think that eventually societies in which women
are mother/breeders will outbreed the societies in which they are not.
So a majority of men and women will be raised by mother/breeders and
expect to be or to marry mother/breeders.


---
Stephen McLeod (aka Bandolar)
So... what do you wanna be when YOU grow up?