76116.2201@compuserve.com (Timothy R. Dewart) (12/25/90)
One reply to the posting of the January 6th "A World Gathering" here in my E-mail was, in effect, that what is needed is something more specific as an event/cause (not the exact words).... Well, the specifics will come from people like us as individuals. If by "specifics" one means concrete action, "specifics" would be useful before and continuing after "A World Gathering" on the 6th. The "event" is an oportunity to "reformat the hard disc of our hearts", disinfect the ........ , clean up the desk top,etc. Load the specifics later into the newer upgraded system?! Using another metaphor: I Know that when I am childishly "pigheaded" and I find myself in an argument with another pighead.... its my "pighead" , not my body, i.e. not the me ......that has to be put back in the pig pen..... This is similar to what happens to me when I work for a longtime on my computer.... I get "driven" by its demands, commands, and prompting, and I find it hard to allow myself to pull away from the moment and its specifics and focus . It's even harder to allow myself to "close out" the document (put my pighead back in its pen) and go do something else that would be even more pleasant and productive which might befound in another document/application/ utility/ or not in any of this .... but rather.... GIVING UP the "driven" aspect of my work, quitting the document, quitting the application, shutting off the computer and going back into real life experience/another level/ perhaps into meditation....allowing me to use a different more appropriate tool to dwell with my more centered part of myself..... This centered part of myself does seem to be very hidden by all the aggenda on my "desktop" and there isn't really a "window" yet on my computer screen that I can click-on to tie into that very small and hidden part of me that perhaps contains, or parallels the "still, small voice of god" which my body and "my program" have hidden under specifics/issues/ and the conscious. I need to listen to this "small voice" that is accessable, not always conscious, and not always "running on my desktop"..... -Tim Dewart