Anonymous@uiucuxc.UUCP (10/23/84)
i was alone
you came
and for a time i was no longer alone
but with you came
your own special brand of loneliness
your own special pain
and what i'd known before
did not compare
with what came afterwards
what was left
after you'd gone
and knowing now
what i didn't know then
i will remain alone
and whole
it is better
it is safer
than what i am now
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i saw you today --
and the pain was new again
did you see?
was it written on my face?
the scars so clear
etched forever in my eyes
could you tell?
the broken pieces of my heart
were still scattered at your feet
did you know as you spoke
i was bleeding again as i had then
the wounds
never quite healed
the damage still beyond repair
i saw you today --
and i died
a little more
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a cancer grows
spreads
devours
leaving only death
in its wake
a cancer grows
hungry
thirsting
damaging
leaving only despair
remaining
a cancer grows
painful
hopeless
draining life
leaving only a shell
of what was
you are the cancer
of my soul
and i
what is left
from the sickness
from the desolation
from the desperation
from which there was no cure
only the cancer
growing
killing
spreading
eating
until
there was nothing
not even death
to end the pain
no cures
no drugs
to halt the ceaseless progression of disease
nothing to fill the cavities
of emptiness
of endless pain
my soul would die
if it could
a welcome release
instead of the living hell of this
but there is no death
no release
only the never ending cancer
of you
destroying me