ALAN@NCSUVM.BITNET (01/17/86)
More and more I think. (C)opy (W)ritten by me. I swear. --------------------------------- Alone--Sleepy, yet awake with fire. Fire and Ice are before me, I freeze and burn in the presence- Of what I study, nothing matters, my work leads me on to fields where I play--work and play are equal, neither Matters of life and death, they are what I care for. Nobody to care for. Lonely, yet very much together. I, as one am not afraid, but as the parts, I am terrified. Aloud I yell, quietly I die. Small parts die-- While the Body thrives, they care not. The parts as such care not. As the whole they Love-- The names--VMSYSTEM--ALAN--RELAY--they matter little, yet they carry me over the fields. Where I play--work-- care, yet can not care enough. My life burns as I play-- the years burn down around my head. I watch, with unblinking Eyes are the root. I am scared by the eyes. I can't tell where the eyes are. They watch me all the time. I have gotten used to them. The life eludes me--I should be elsewhere--elsetime-- I care--but am not allowed to care. I burn like I should not-- I live--die--sleep--awake--all--nothing-- I am afraid to show Feelings run deep. They wash over me, flaming as I swim in the pools that others have already left. I work. I drown. The work is nothing. Yet, it is everything I have. It is what I work when I must not--yet, I work and work and work and work-- What I do matters, but then, what matters? Life? not mine! Liberty is the persuit of what you wish to persue. I can not-- it is humor that I even work here. MacDonalds! Ho! I could work-- Yet, it matters SO LITTLE! --------- Alan Clegg USMail: 2801-23 Brigadoon Drive "I am NOT a crook" Raleigh, NC 27606 Bitnet: ALAN@NCSUVM Home Bell: (919) 851-3246 ARPA: ALAN%NCSUVM.BITNET@wiscvm Work Bell: (919) 737-3035 UUCP: ALAN%NCSUVM.BITNET@psuvaxg Play Bell: (919) 831-0708