josh@unm-cvax.UUCP (04/13/85)
The below conversation is real as best as I can remember it. She and I have become good friends and two months ago she discovered she had cancer and if luck and went bad she had at most 6 months to live. --------------------------------------------------------------------------- Her : I just stood there... She put a gun to her head and blew her brains out. I didn't know what to do... If she didn't kill herself then, maybe later. We had always been good friends. She called me up and invited me to watch her kill herself. I wish I had known she was going to kill herself ... I wouldn't have come. Me : Would you stop her now? Would you wait? Her : No! well.. Yes.. I don't know. Karl can't believe I just stood and watched her die. Me : Have you ever tried to kill yourself? Her : Once... Well, everybody has ... once. In my freshman year in high school. Me : How did you try? Her : A gun. Me : Why did you stop? Her : I did not want to die a messy death. I tried pills but I puked them up. Me : Are you glad you didn't kill yourself? Her : No. Me : Why are you trying to kill yourself now? Your getting drunk every night and you take pain killers that your doctor says you should not. Her : I don't care if I die. I have been fighting for 2 months now and I don't care if I die. I will just let the doctors have me for weekends but during the week I am going to have fun for my last few days. Me : Well... I care. I don't want to see a friend die without fighting. Her : I left you my car.... ------------------------------------------------------------------------- What do I do? Thanks her for the car? :-) Send me mail . . . I L O V E mail Josh Siegel {convex,ucbvax,gatech,csu-cs,anl-mcs,lanl-a}!unmvax!unm-cvax!josh