josh@unm-cvax.UUCP (04/13/85)
The below conversation is real as best as I can remember it. She
and I have become good friends and two months ago she
discovered she had cancer and if luck and went bad she
had at most 6 months to live.
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Her : I just stood there... She put a gun to her head and blew her brains
out. I didn't know what to do... If she didn't kill herself then,
maybe later. We had always been good friends. She called me up
and invited me to watch her kill herself. I wish I had known she
was going to kill herself ... I wouldn't have come.
Me : Would you stop her now? Would you wait?
Her : No! well.. Yes.. I don't know. Karl can't believe I just stood
and watched her die.
Me : Have you ever tried to kill yourself?
Her : Once... Well, everybody has ... once. In my freshman year in high school.
Me : How did you try?
Her : A gun.
Me : Why did you stop?
Her : I did not want to die a messy death. I tried pills but I puked them up.
Me : Are you glad you didn't kill yourself?
Her : No.
Me : Why are you trying to kill yourself now? Your getting drunk every
night and you take pain killers that your doctor says you should not.
Her : I don't care if I die. I have been fighting for 2 months now and
I don't care if I die. I will just let the doctors have me
for weekends but during the week I am going to have fun for my
last few days.
Me : Well... I care. I don't want to see a friend die without fighting.
Her : I left you my car....
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What do I do? Thanks her for the car? :-)
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